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Clean Up – Inside and Out

I am one of those people who doesn’t like a lot of clutter around me.  Though I’m not perfect at it, I try my best to not let things pile up to the point they become overwhelming just to look at.  Dirty laundry goes into the hamper, clean laundry gets folded and put away, dirty dishes get rinsed and put into the dishwasher, and so forth.

Several months ago, the Lord told me to clean out and clean up.  I knew He didn’t mean “clean the house” in the general sense of that phrase.  He meant for me to dig out all the stuff I had been toting around in boxes for years.  The stuff I had been hanging on to. So one day, I pulled all those neatly stacked boxes out of the closet in the spare bedroom.  What was inside, however, was not so neatly organized.  I just threw stuff in there over the years thinking “I’ll get to it later”. One by one, I went through them.  I had photos scattered throughout most all of them I think, instead having all my photos in one box.  I still had stuff from when I was a teenager because it meant something to me at the time.  I had a lot of stuff I collected and kept from my Mom’s house after she passed, most of which was just because it was Mom’s.  Most of it didn’t really have any value, sentimental or otherwise.  It all was a jumbled mess.

The Lord had me do this because I needed to learn to let go of things.  And there were many things that I thought, “Why did I keep that?! What was I thinking?”  Those were easy enough to trash.  But I also found there were many things I kept because of a past memory that needed to go. It wasn’t about the thing, it was about what was attached to it.  I didn’t think to count how many boxes I started with, but I am down to 9.  Some of those remaining have things that I can and will sell.  But the Lord wasn’t finished with that just yet.

The past month or so, Jesus has been working on the closet in my heart.  I had gotten myself, or rather allowed myself, to get in a funk.  I felt like I was just stuck in the mud and couldn’t get myself out.  The worst of it all was that I lost my joy.  I don’t know if one could even call it a prayer, but I just said, “Lord help me with this. I feel like a mess inside.”  He did just that.  Little by little, in various ways.  Some of it was through grabbing a pen and paper and just writing out the stuff that kept popping up in my thoughts.  Some of His help came through some of the programs I watched on BVOVN.  There were two programs in particular that Jesus really got through to me with.  One, was an episode from “Your World With Creflo” titled Abandonment Anxiety. And the other one was (I believe the 2nd episode) of the new Kellie & Jerri Show titled Happy To Be Me.

After watching these shows, I said, “Okay Lord, I yield myself to You. Peel back the layers and shine Your light on those hidden things lurking in my heart that I don’t know.”  And just wow!  Layer after layer, the Lord has been revealing some stuff in me that I had no idea was in there.  But with every layer revealed, so much of what I’ve gone through in my life (most of which was self-inflicted), now makes sense to me.  And so much of it was just lies from the enemy….a.k.a trash!  Not worth keeping!

I thought it was going to be an uncomfortable process, but it went better than I thought it would.  I got rid of much of the hidden clutter in my closet.  I also got rid of some of the hidden clutter lurking inside of me that I really wasn’t aware of.  My natural closet in the spare bedroom was a reflection of my inner, spiritual closet.  All nice and neat on the outside, but a jumbled mess on the inside.  I needed Jesus to help me tackle both closets and set me free from the junk hiding inside.  I needed cleaning up, both inside and out.

I pray this helped you in some way today.  And always remember that God’s love will change your life for the better! Believe in His love! He’s not out to get you, He wants to heal you and set you free!