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Trust Issues

Greetings Beloved!  I pray that you are prospering and in health even as your soul prospers!

The Lord wanted me to share with you today about my trust problems.  When I really think about it, I’ve had issues with trusting people for a long time, as in many years. But in the past couple of years or so, He’s revealed to me that I had trust issues big time!  I didn’t trust much of anyone including God or even myself.  Yes, that is very sad, but that’s just where I’ve been for many years. Jesus has brought me a long ways….but He’s still working on me and so graciously helping me. Hallelujah!

I remember being a shy and quiet child, and I had few friends in school.  I was the poster child for introverts if there ever was one.  Growing up, the only person I was completely and totally comfortable with was my younger sister.  I got teased and made fun of in grade school (christian school, btw), and got bullied in the 9th grade, which didn’t help matters.  10th grade and on was a little better.  As an adult, I still wasn’t one to introduce myself let alone start a conversation with someone I didn’t know well. Then I got a job at a grocery store as a cashier.  I took that job because I needed a job, and it didn’t cross my mind in that moment just how much I would be interacting and dealing with people. Hey I was young and naive. It’s so funny now, when I think back to being in training for that job.  The lady who was training me, put me on a “live” lane meaning real customers coming through.  I would just scan their items and tell them the total due.  After 3 or 4 customers, my trainer pulled me back off, and looked at me and said rather sternly, “You have got to say ‘hi’ to people!” I can only imagine the look on my face as I was thinking inside myself “You mean I have to talk to people?” I didn’t say that, thank God. I just told her “ok,” and began to force myself to start acknowledging each customer.  It was the best thing for me and really helped me A LOT when it came to strangers.

But I still didn’t let hardly anyone get real close to me. I was a very private person emotionally, and the deep things of my heart most often either just stayed inside of me, or was written in a journal that I would hide so no one could find it.  I always felt like no one understood me or even cared to, if that makes sense. That wasn’t true, but that is how I saw it then, and even until a couple of years ago.

I got born again in 1995, but it wasn’t until 2017 that the Lord started to reveal and help me with this.  Why that long?  Me.  He was waiting on me to let Him. I didn’t know that I could talk to Him about everything!  Once I know that I could, I still struggled to talk to Him and just pour my heart out, even though I knew my heart was safe with Him, and knew that He already knew what was in my heart! I was so used to just keeping everything to myself and not talking about things that bothered me. I realized that I didn’t even trust God!

One of the ways He showed me to help with this where He is concerned, was to look up and write down several Scriptures about trusting God. And then to personalize them and read them out loud.  I haven’t read them every single day, but every day that I do, I can sure tell the difference in me! And I can tell my faith in Him is growing, too.  Thank You Jesus! And I feel like I’m lighter and more free inside….it’s so wonderful!

If by chance you feel like you are struggling with fully trusting and having faith in God, people or yourself even, I highly recommend doing the same thing.  In fact, I’ll just share the Scriptures I’ve been using with you. I’ll put a link at the end of this post. Read them out loud at least once a day. And read them believing that it will make a difference.  It might take a few days, or even weeks, but just keep at it….your mind will get renewed. Then one day, something will make you go “Hey, I didn’t have any trouble believing that!”

Much love to you, and remember to believe His love for you!  He will never leave you or forsake you….ever!

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