Hello beloved! I know it has been quite a while since I have posted anything. So if you have been following me, I offer my sincere apologies! I got stuck.
You are probably thinking, what do you mean ‘You got stuck?’ Well, I got stuck….meaning I stopped moving and progressing in the Lord. The enemy really attacked my mind and attempted to drag me back down the road of depression was the main thing.
He started hitting me with the thoughts like nobody cares about you, that’s why they don’t call and check on you. You are so cut off that no one would even miss you if you were gone. God is mad at you now and doesn’t want to talk to you because you let work take precedence….and just a whole bunch of other junk! All lies from hell, this I know in my spirit. But, when you really are all by yourself, and you have little to no interaction with humanity for extended periods of time, it can be quite easy to succomb to such thoughts. What one sees in the natural lines up with these thoughts, and if we aren’t watchful, it begins to “appear” to be true.
Moving on with this story….over a period of time, I could sense that I was slowly sinking in deeper. It wasn’t like a slippery slope, but more like quicksand. On a slippery slope, you just keep sliding down no matter what you do. But quicksand is different. In quicksand, if you stay still, you won’t sink any deeper. But if you struggle and fight, you will sink more. So, when I began to realize where I was, I sat still. However, I didn’t know for sure what to do next. I didn’t know what to pray. It seemed as though any confession I spoke over myself was having no effect whatsoever. And so, I felt like I was just stuck right where I was.
I felt in my heart that I just needed something different. I needed a good prodding. Deep within me was this desire to have a loving and swift kick in the rear. While that might not make any sense at first glance, but one of my favorite preachers has said many times that the highest form of love is discipline. And I’ll save the details of that concept for another blog post.
I was yearning to get OUT of the funk I was in though I didn’t even know what to ask the Lord for specifically. All I could mutter was just “Help me Jesus!” And help me He did! He led me to listen to some other ministers. Ministers that are anointed to bluntly yet lovingly pull people out of the devil’s tactics and grip, and snap them back to attention. Thank You Jesus!
Interestingly enough, many of these ministers’ teachings and preachings said, “You aren’t stuck! You just stopped moving in the proper way and direction you need to move!” And boy was that ever the truth! I did stop moving. I let the confusion and chaos the devil had attacked me with to take over and cause havoc to the point that I just stopped doing anything…..right or wrong.
But praise God Almighty! He is loving me back to life, clearing the rubble of what felt like a tornado at the time, and putting solid groung underneath my feet!
I am not stuck, and I never was! And neither are you! Just keep seeking and trusting God! He WILL pull you out of the mud and the muck, and place you on solid ground if you don’t give up and don’t quit! Amen!
I love you, my brothers, sisters and friends in the Lord!